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2 AM Musings

I have been wide awake since before 2 AM. Wide eyed and well, not so bushy tailed. This is the second day in a row. Why?  No really, why? This is the second day in a row my brain refuses to turn off for longer than a few hours. It's like half my brain wants to party and the logical side knows this is not a good thing.   

As a mom of three on the first day of a new school year I am sitting in the family room in the dark thinking of all the things I can't do right now. I am also lamenting summer. Today summer break officially ends. At least I am up in time to get the kids to school.  

I am not excited for today. It has a few milestones that we can not put off. I will not drive to the elementary school for the first time in eight years. I will be dropping my youngest off at middle school and my oldest at the high school. Also the middle child decided to go back to school so I will not be homeschooling this year.  

In a few hours my kids will wake up and start a new school year. I will have the day to myself and I will probably have to take a nap to function this afternoon. Since I can't do much right now I choose to pray.  Pray that they find their David and Jonathan friendship. A friend that against all odds sticks by their side. I pray that they let their lights shine in the dark places of public school. I pray they make good choices when I am not there for guidance. I pray that they have a good school year and that one doesn't regret going back to school.  

The summers a fleeting. I am down to four summers before my oldest is done with high school and most likely off to college. Bad part of having all my kids close together is that all this will be over quick. Nathan is done in 2024, which kinda sounds far away but it isn't. I drove to the elementary school for a longer period of time than it will take for my kids to be done with school.  It's hard not to number the days when big milestones are happening. I will try not to be bothered by the milestones I can't stop. Although it kinda feels like kindergarten all over again, but without the boo hoo breakfast.  

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