Make Up Your Mind

"I have learned over the years that when one's mind is made up, this diminishes fear; knowing what must be done does away with fear." ~Rosa Parks 

One of my biggest writing blocks is fear. This quote today just hit me like a ton of bricks. Maybe it is my age, my position in life or that today was the day that I needed to read these words of wisdom. I have not even tried to write since NaNoWriMo.  

I did start a new journal January 1st but I only got a couple of days in and was already not writing daily. A good book will do that to you. My friend recommended a series that I can not put down. Makes me think about a quote I read that says something like, nothing renders me useless like a really good book. I want to write one of those!  I want my written word to render someone useless. 

Life just happens to me sometimes. I am a mother of three kids, my oldest is now a teen. Things do come up suddenly but I need to take my life back. No more blaming life for my lack of disciple. My lack of sitting at a computer and writing is my own demise. I have to make up my mind to write. I make plenty of time for other things in life that are less important to me.  

I really do want to write. I think about writing but I hardly sit and write. I do make an occasional note like yesterday when the sun finally popped out of the clouds and a rainbow appeared in the sky. I think about how I would write that into a book and take a few notes and go on with my day.  

I can not wait for NaNoWriMo in November to be a writer for a month and then not write again until next November. So today I am making up my mind to write. Maybe not daily but I am going to think about my priorities and set a realistic goal. I feel like my life should have more day that I have sat down to write and not the other way around. As I sit here wondering where a whole month went without a written word is not what I want.  I want more days of writing.